words are wind

Ramen :D just the smell of it makes me unbelievably happy. This allnighter has just been made so much better

So … I totally just took a sticker labeled “S” from my pug’s new sweater and stuck it on the front of his pants … LOL I’m so bored and I don’t want to write these essays T__T

Wow today is so fucking shitty. I woke up at 10:30 to get my passport renewed at Chinatown. I came back at 5 without a renewed passport because the place at Chinatown had a broken camera to take passport photos was broken so they directed me to a post office downtown. When I got there, they told me that I needed more materials that will take at least 2 weeks to gather. That means I’ll probably have to end up paying for expedited shipping which is 60 more dollars. Ugh

So I wasted 7 hours today. AND I have 3 essays and a problem set due on Monday. 

The only bright side is that I got cupcakes & iced coffee. Pics after this

I am not a people person at all. I get annoyed and frustrated so easily it’s not even funny.

Sigh I’m getting more and more anxious for my econ midterm tomorrow. Last quarter I screwed up the final really badly. It wasn’t even because I didn’t know anything. In fact, I knew everything! But I got really nervous before the test so I fucked up during the test.

I’m just terrified it’ll happen to me again tomorrow. Ugh

Sent out an application. Rejection in 4 minutes. Great

I died. So I was working in the library when I get texts telling me where my target was. One was from the moderator. I decided to trust them so I went and did indeed kill her.

But on my way back, I saw my assassin. And we were in such close range that his weapon was much better than mine. So I died.

Top 4 :D and now I can work and study in peace. Yay I’m pretty happy lol

So nothing really has changed. I still haven’t killed my target and at this rate, I’m looking to be singles out for extra punishment - ie more people can be allowed to kill me. I feel really bad for my assassin though. Since I’m so hard to kill, he’s being punished. Not only is he free for all to kill, he’s not even safe when sleeping.

Speaking of my assassin, today he waited outside the classroom today and came in when class ended. Good thing I left by the back exit hahaha. So lucky.

I think I’m addicted to iced coffee now.

I’m so tired. All I want to do is sleep. But I haven’t even done any work. So I have no reason to be tired. I think I’m burning out. But how can that be? I can’t afford to burn out. Fuck

i’m scared of talking to strangers and answering phones and getting on buses and going into classes that aren’t my own at school and paying for things in shops and doing basically anything that could result in me embarrassing myself in any way how am i even going to live the rest of my life

Hehe pug wanted to watch avatar with me today for dinner :D. We watched one ep and then his Internet gave out XD. So them we ended up watching Tactical Force. Haha it was quite funny - explosions, huge strong men clobbering each other, and a ton of cursing. Quite predictable though.

It’s been awhile since my last update because frankly nothing much has happened.

But now I’m in top 5. Or so I think. Last night an email was sent out by someone claiming that they’re the overlord. Not only did they state that the 2 people with the highest kill count are both dead but also that my assassin and another guy are free for all to kill.

This just brings up a whole ton of problems. If someone randomly kills my assassin, do they now target me? Then I’ll once again be in the dark about who’s after me. Also … is this person even the real overlord?

Arghh… So tempted to just offer to die for 20 bucks

rewatching this shit.

Hahaha it’s pathetic how I don’t have the courage to say what I want/feel to the people that I want to the most.

I hate it when people don’t keep their word. Even if it’s for something trivial like “I’ll go to the store with you” and they end up not going with you. Even if it’s because they were trying to help you like “I was trying to get you a textbook so you don’t have to spend 100 dollars buying it”. Don’t give your word if you don’t mean to keep it. Even if it’s trivial. And if something else is more important, don’t make it seem like the agreement was insignificant.